Chapter 18

Days are passing very slowly! It's was hard time to me, alone without anything or anyone!!

The letters that I did was in my desk BUT! The *K* wasn't there!! I'm sure that I kept them together!
I asked the maid, who was in my room? she told me mama was there!

Ya3ny mama took it!! akeed shafat kel shay bel desk! 3ndy papers feehoum peoms! And the letters! And a paper of what I'm feeling!

Eley mestaghreba mena ana enha makalemtny 3anna wala shay!

 

 

 

I can't describe my feeling! It's too hard! Only Tears can describes everything! Everyday I cry until I sleep..

7asaitne maytaa! Maley hadaf..sleeping, school, studying, and that's it! No friends, no cousins, no khaled! I miss everyone and everything..

3egub ma legait elensan eley y7ebna w a7eba chethe y9eer! Akhaf khaled yensany! Yemken ymel w ohwa yan6erny, or maybe ma yhemma! Bas etha ma yhemma laish se2al 3any? 7ata low y7ebny yegdar yan6erny more than a month? Boys doesn't care about anyone ya3ny bent trou7 fey ghairha! I hope khaled mu chethe! I need to find a solution for this. I Can't handle it anymore, just 1 week passed how can I stay like this more than a month!

Tired of thinking..

Mama still ma tekalemny.. Bas she allowed me arou7 3end deema!:D

 

 

Me and deema was thinking how can I talk to her and khaled! She told me agoul 7ag mama ena 3ndy project w lazem I use the laptop.. ana ma a7eb achatheb 3ala mama bas ma fey 7al ghaira!

 

 

 

Re7t 3end deema hoping to talk to khaled! But the wireless isn't working:c

 

 

When I came back home I went to mama..

Me: mama 3ady akheth elaptop? 3ndy project

Mama: hal project ma 9ar ela al7een

Me: shsawey lazem

Mama: ok bas awal ma tkhal9een tredeena

Me: project ma ykhale9 eb youm

Mama: ya3ny shloun

Me: 6weel ma agdar akhal9a eb youm yalla adres ma yamdeeny

Mama: ok ba3dain tredeena

Me: ok thankyouuu

Finallyyyyy!!! El7mdellaaah mama rethaat! Men kether elwanasa 6oul elwagt I'm smiling..

I took it and ran to my room! My heartbeats is getting faster! Like this is the first time I will talk to my friends and khaled!!

I quickly opened it and sign in with my emails..
First one for my family and friends *offline*
Secound one for khaled! *online*

I can't go online because shahad will know that I'm lying to mama!

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Hiiiiiii

I'm really happy that I will talk to khaled! He's my life!!

But he didn't replay more than 30 minutes:c ana bel yalla khathaita 3ashan akalma akher shay ma yred:c

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Miss you:(
Where are you!!
Khaleeed:'(

After 1 hour !

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Hii Rawaaaan<3
Welcome baack!!
Sorry tawny ashoufa

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Thankyou;* it's ok aham shay eny al7een akalmek<3

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
7yaaty wallah ma tadreen shkether fegadtech! Kel youm an6erch! Awal elayam maknt adry 3anch, yanaiit wallah dshait se2alt your friends ashwa ba3dha eb cham youm deema galatly!

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Chenk 7as bey9eer chethee w 36aitek my password!

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ya m3adwa ashwa eny 3erafta wala a9eer maynoun ma adry wainch! Mu men 3waydech 7ata wentay 6al3a tkhaleena online! Hal marra kelsh

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh:(

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Shlounch? W shloun elderasa!

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
El7mdellah bkhair, ga3da adres 3adel.. Ma t9adeg shloun ana al7een 3aysha! Mama 7armatney men kel shay!:'(

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Kella menny ana eley ma khathailtech tadreseen w 3ala 6oul tekalmeeny! Wallah asef 7agech 3alay


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
La enta malek sheghel ana maknt arakez..kheft enk tensany

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
7beebty laish tfakreen chethe? Ansa rou7y bas ma ansach! Ana a7ebch abeech tkouneen wathqa men hal shay!

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh bas madry.. Shloun mara7 tkalemny wala shay akeed btezhag w tdawer ghairy:(

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
3ady an6erch! Aham shay tkouneen bkhair w tredeen tkalmeeny methel gabel

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh bas ana ma agdar akalmk al7een.. Gelt 7ag mama 3ndy project lazem I use the laptop galatly ok.. I'll used cham youm!:D

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Hal cham youm mara7 akhaleech 24 sa3a akalmech;**

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Yalla 7beeby al7een ma agdar akalmek ban6er 3ala ma elkel ynam ba3dain ashbek akalmek tamerny 3ala shay?

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Salamtech take care! Love you<3

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Love you too bbye;*

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Waiting..bye

Sign out

 

I went to watch television 3ala ma elkel ynam, maby mama tshoufny 24 sa3a maska elaptop 3ashan ma tshek.. And then swait rou7y nayma.. Mama came and checked if I'm using it or not and left the room..

And then I talked to him until 4:30 am..

I kept the laptop with me only 3 days, 3ashan maby mama ta7remny mena khair shar..

Bhal 3 days erte7t wayed! Kalamt my friends and khaled! Raddat rou7yy.. 7asait bqeemat elwagt! W shloun ena mu kafy! A7es abey akalem khaled ba3ad! Bas I can't:c I will miss him a lot! Akher shay galey eyah * take care and study well 3ashany I love you and I'm waiting for you 7atta low 6awaltay w latfakreen eny ra7 ansach aw akalem ghairch you're my one and only! A7ebch bbye*

These words khalouny artaaaaa7 w astanaas! Wala afaker ena ra7 yensany! Chethe agdar athaye3 wagty bel noum, derasa, tv bedoun la a7aty! Bas ham ashtagla hal shay mu beedy:c

40 days passed and finally it's HOLIDAY!!:D

Eb hal 40 days wayed t3athabt! Meshtaga 7ag kel shaaay en7eramt mennaa! Mama khalatny a6la3 cham mara weyaha w re7t 3nd deema 3 times and that's it! 9ebart wayed 3ala elholiday! Kent a3ed elayam w elsa3aat! 9ij ena te3abt bas 3eraft mnu eley y7ebny w yes2al 3any! Mnu eley wegaf weyay w sa3adny! Akher wa7ed knt atwqa3a yougaf weyay khaled! Bas kan awal wa7ed feehoum w khayef 3alay!

El7mdellah te3alamt wayed ashya2! W 3eraft qeemat elwagt w elshay etha ra7! 7asait bel nas eley 3aysheen 6oul 3umerhoum chethe! Allah y3eenhoum..




I took the laptop and the house phone! Ma 9adagt 3ala allah everything is getting back!!