Chapter 14

sorry for being late, hope you'll enjoy it xx

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Welcome maryouma;*

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Thankyou khaled

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Wain re7tay?

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Lol lazem t3aref

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
La2 3ala ra7tech bas shda3wa;p

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Asfa mu qa9dy re7na avenues


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Enshallah estanastay?

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh:D

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ana 6ale3 weya khwaty shway w rad

His sisters? Ya 7athaaa! Temanait hatha okhouy! Meyana weyahoum, yeth7aak, yesoulef, ye6la3 weyahoum..

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Wow, have fun:D

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
I will;*

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
3ad weddy ykoun 3ndy okhu nafsk


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Laish?


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
A7es wanasa enta w khwatek meyana weya ba3ath


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ma 3ndech khwan?

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Embala bas baina salam w etha kalefaw 3ala nafs'houm ygouloly shlounch


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ana mawjoud wain re7t


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh el7mdellah allah 3wathny

Shlould I tell him the truth? Ma adry etha ohwa yestahal wela la2..

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
7beebty ma abeech tfakreen chethe ana mawjoud w enshallah ba3awthech 3an elkel!


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Enshallah, etha radait tell me;*

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Men 3youney cham maryouma 3ndy;*


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Hehehe:$
Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Love you! Wallah wayed erta7tlech;*


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Me too:$

So now I'm thinking to tell him the truth! And continue our life together.. Bas ma adry shnu ra7 y9eer b3adha! Allah yaster..!

I kept the laptop open, and went to take the house phone to call deema..

Me: aloo

Deema: alo

Me: dayouum bagoula kel shay

Deema: eeh ana bel bait w entay

Me: khala9 akalmech msn

Deema: yalla bbye

Me: bye

Huuf! Wagta deema mategdar tetkalam!! A7taaj akalem a7ad agoula gabel la asawey ay shay 3shan ma at7assaf zyada..

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Mnu yamch?


DÂYÖMÂ:
Noura, entay men 9ejch btgouleela?


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh 9ej eny mu wathqa feeh 3adel bas a7esa y7ebny w ana bedait a7eba w etha ma getla al7een mara7 agdar agoula


DÂYÖMÂ:
Allah yaster a7esa ga3ed yel3ab 3alaich


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Ma3a elayam ra7 ybayen kel shay, kalama, 6areeqta..


DÂYÖMÂ:
Wallah ma yendara


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Ana mu met3alga feeh ohwa eley kel youm ykalemny w yes2al 3any!

DÂYÖMÂ:
Take care!


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Tetwaqe3ain shnu btkoun rdat fe3la?


DÂYÖMÂ:
Madry a7es ra7 y3a9eb w ma ykalmech again w yentqem


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Omg la2 mabyy khla9

DÂYÖMÂ:
Jarbay mara7 takhsereen shay


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Ok;\

I chatted with my friends..while I was waiting for khaled!! 7ady khayfa men raddat fe3la..

I'm thinking shloun ra7 agoula..shloun abdey elkalam! Ra7 y3a9eb wela la2..ymken nhed ba3ath! La2ny chathabt 3alaih..

I went to watch tv and sat with shahad and omar..had some fight me and omar AS USUAL!

Shahad: Rawoun

Me: hala

Shahad: shfeech sar7ana

Me: mu sar7ana ga3da ashouf elmovie

Shahad: hmm

Me and shahad mu 7ail grab men ba3ath bas ehya kel shay tgouley eyah w ana ma ajazef agoulaha shay! Akhaf enha ma tertha belly asaweeh, mahma yekoun she's my big sister w khayfa 3alay..bas a7es enha tadry 3an kel shay!

After that we ordered from pizza hut and went to my room, check if khaled came back or not..

It's 6 massages.. Is khaled one of them? I'm sure he can't spend an hour without me!!

DÂYÖMÂ:
sh9ar weyach?

G:
laish matredeen?

3a baly 7beeby:
missing(u)


Nesait ya khelly DALALY?:
Hello

«Fatoum»:
Hii


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
7beebty
Where r u?
Back home
Miss u!!
Wainech???

Answered all my friends and khaled..

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Halaa sorry I wasn't here


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
I missed u!


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Me too<3 busy?


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
La2 7beebty laish?


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Kheled ana bagoulek shay bas ma abeek tefhamney ghala6


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Shnu?


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Mu kel elnas theqa 3adel?


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
3adel!

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Khaled ana chathabt 3alaik bcham shaghla bas mu qa9dy shay, lazem akhaf 3ala nafsy w sum3ety ana ma adry enta shnu awal ma 3eraftek w wala adry eny ra7 a7ebk..May9eer ay a7ad ykalemny agoula ana mnu fey nas mu kafu..al7een mar taqreeban 2 months w 7baina ba3ath w 3eraft enta shnu atmana enk 3ala 6oul tkoun chethe w gad eltheqa w eley ma tertha 3ala khawatek lazem ma tertha 3ala ay a7ad..ana rawan, bkamel 14, I'm not in xxxx school.. I'm in xxxx sorry 3ala kel shay w etha matabey nekamel it's ok la2ny ana elghal6ana

I don't know etha eley gelta 9a7 wela ghala6! Hatha eley agdar agoula!

I'm so nervous! Etha ohwa doesn't love me ra7 ybayen w ysawey salfa w ma ykalemny mara thanya! Laish? La2na ma y7ebny wala yqader mawqefy! Ana bnaya w ley sum3a! Kafy eny ga3d akalma men wara ahaly!

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
9a7 kalamech w mqader mawqefch, mu kel men hab w dab 3eraf entay menu w el9ara7a kubartay b3ainy ma tewaqa3t chethe tafkeerch, ana a7ebch w chethe khalaiteeny a7ebch akthar! W enshallah ra7 akoun gad hal theqa, aw3edch eny a7ebch 3ala 6oul


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Madry shnu agoulek bas wallah asfa w thankyou enk tefahamt kel shay



Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
El7mdellah ena bhal ayam 3erafteeny w wethaqtay feeny
Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Eeh bas enta mara7 tertha khwatek ykalmoun shloun terthaha 3alay?


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ma arthaha 3alaihoum bas entay khathaitay galbyy w 3agly w rou7yy a7ebch! W enshallah a9ounch 6oul el3umer;*


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Enshallah;*

Thanks GOD! 3addat elsalfa 3ala khair kelsh ma tewaqa3t radda beykoun chethe!

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Abeech tou3edeeny men elyoum w raye7 ench ma techathbeen 3alay bshay 7ata low shnu ykoun


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Wa3ad;*

7baita akthar w akthar men 6areeqat tafkeera! Lazem ma achatheb 3alaih la2n mara7 yfeedny bshay..

El7mdellaah a7es eb ra7aa nasfeyaa lama I told him the truth!

Ya 9a7eby laish eljefa:
Ma ra7 t9adgeen shnu 9aar!

DÂYÖMÂ:
Shnuu

Ya 9a7eby laish eljefa:
Ma 3a9ab wala sawwa shay! Bel 3aks tefaham elmawthou3 w enshallah gad hal theqa w 7abaitch akthar..

DÂYÖMÂ:
Waaay eyaaneeeen<3

Ya 9a7eby laish eljefa:
Lazem ma afaker eb fahad kelsh w ansa hathak elemail and the facebook account ba3ad ma adesha

DÂYÖMÂ:
Eeh a7san

Etha elwa7ed yabey y7eb? Lazem y7eb men kel galba w y9oun hal 7ub, may9eer ykalem a7ad 7ata low friend! Hatha yu3tabar kheyana!! A9lan mala da3ey kafy the person we love! Bas lel2asaf ma7ad yfaker bhal 6areeqa w qaleel eley y9ounon el7ub!

We chatted for 3 hours and fall a sleep..

Kella akhaley the laptop opened..

I woke up around 12:00PM, washed my face and changed into red pj's was written on it *Love is Life*

And checked my email..

This is the first time men ba3ad 1 and half year anam w ana merta7a! Bedoun la thameery y2anebny..

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Good morning rawany


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Good morning


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
9a7 elnoum 7beebty


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
9a7 bdank:*
Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Nemtay 3adel?

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Akeed la2ny kalamtk gabel la anam;*

Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
7ayaty wallah;*

Men awal ma 3erafta till now! 24/7 hour we're talking to each other! Bas wagt elmadresa aw etha 6al3a.. 7ata eb ayam elmadresa awal ma agoum akalma shway then I go..!

Ghalouya mestaghreba laish ma tekalamt 3an fahad..bas ma adry shloun I'll tell her about khaled ra7 tgouly ena ma7ad yestahal w all of them are players! So I act as if nobody in my life..

M7amad traveled to complete his masters..
Ashwa ena safar! 3ala elaqal I will have some freedom!

I went out with mama,shahad and omar to have some lunch..I asked mama meta btredouly my mobile? Galatley lama yerja3 m7amad kalmeeh ana maley sheghel! Huuf lay meta ra7 an6er I'm sick of this life!

We came back home around 6:45 pm..
I went to changed my dress and talk to khaled..<3

But!! Khaled isn't online! How come? Ohwa kela online wala marra sawwa sign out! Akhaf 9ar feeh shay! Aw swaly block.. Yabey yentqem!! Laiish ohwa rathy bkel shay w he told me that he loves me!!

Chapter 13

I told my cousin Deema about fahad and everything happened with me..

Deema is noura's sister.. 14 years, tall, long curly hair, white skin but tanned..

After the expo we went back home..I really wanted to stay out!

Mama: wain re7taw

Me: ma3rath

Mama: ashouf ma 6awaltaw

Me: eeh malaqa

Mama: bas la tma9kheenha bel 6al3at weyahoum

Me: mama! 6al3at weya my friend maku al7een tgouleely la ama9ekh'ha ana ma 9adagt 3ala allah rethaitay!! Mat7soun eny men zeman mu 6al3a aby astanaas

Mama: latkhaleeny agoulch mara thanya maku 6al3a weyhoum

Me: ufff khala9 ok

 

I opened the laptop and checked fahad's facebook.. If he wrote something about today! I wanted to know did he figure that's me!

Nothing is there;s

I had an facebook account with my real name..




I'm really bored of this routine! Nothing is allowed!!

Fakart eny asaweely facebook account but with another name agazer wagty feeh..bedoun la a7ad y7asebny 3ala kel shay asaweeh!

And I did it!!

I received many request from random people..
Accepted everyone..and chatted with them

I'm tired and want to sleep but I can't!




I took my ipod and listened to a song that made me cry!

هذا أنا في وحدتي بعدك على الله العوض

لا شفتني بمرايتي القانا مانشبه بعض

غيرتني ماعدت انا بين على وجهي العنا

وصارت تعابير الحزن تمحي تعابير الهنا

واتصنع البسمة عشان الفرحة بوجهي تبـان

وشلون بس وبسمتي وضع على الوجه انفرض

يالله على الله العوض

وشلون بس وكل شي أيام قربك كان حي

واليوم مابين الحياة والموت لاتحزن علي !

لا شفتني بعدك حزين باكر تفرحني السنين

مدام بعدك قسمتي ماني على امر الله معترض

يالله على الله العوض

بصبر وانا ياما صبرت وياما قدرت و ماقدرت

اجني ثمر طول الصبر وياما من احبابي خسرت

بس انت مابي اخسرك دايم بشوق اتذكرك

وصورة قبال مرايتي كل يوم تجمعنا بعض

يالله على الله العوض

Hal song tethakerny eb fahad! Ma agdar agoul ela allah ywafga eb 7ayata w enshallah ykoun merta7 w mestanes..




I cried till I fall asleep!




Deema came and woke up me..



She was shocked with my face!



Deema: kel hathaa noum


Me: ma nemt ela 7 hours 7ram 3alaich


Deema: 3ayal laish wayhch matfoukh w 3younch bte6la3 men mukanha


Me: madry


Deema: kntay tabcheen


Me: eeh

Deema: mu gelna tensaina! Rawan estansay lay meta w entay chethe malech khelg a7ad


Me: ok ba7awel


Deema: yalla goumay badlay bn6la3


Me: maly khelg omy tsaweely suwlef


Deema la2 rethat

Me: ok




We went to avenues..ate lunch at Nino and then entered cinema..






El6al3at tkhaleeny ansa fahad! Telaheeny 3anna.. A7san men ma ag3ad bel bait w 6oul elwagt athkera!





Gemt atnasa fahad w ma afaker feeh..ma gemt akalem m7amad men hathak elyoum! Ohwa y7awel ysoulef w yeth7ak weyay bas ana ma ared 3laih aw etha rdait ajamla!



Ma7ad y9adegny laish a7eb yousef akthar menna! Yousef fahem mu m3aqad methel m7amad..yefhamny mu kel shay ydaqeq 3alaih..wayed shaghlat 3enda 3ady a7eb tafkeera




Elkel yestaghreb ena ana w ekhwany mu 7ail weya ba3ath bas salam w shwayat suwalef..asoulef w ath7ak weya my cousins akthar menhoum!



Kela huwash ana w omar bas elwa7eeden elgrab men ba3ath kela ag3ad weya a6ega y6egny al3ab weya..bas sa3at n9eer rabe3:p





Ama shahad ma adry shloun tafkreeha kela la2 w 3aib w may9eer..ma atjarra2 w agoulaha ay shay ma3anna ehya kel shay tgouley eyah..



Mama makhtha bkha6erha 3alay bas athel a7ebha w akeed ehya tsawey chethe 3ashan ma9la7tey w khayfa 3alay..





Baba a7ebba ydale3na kelena bas sa3at ykoun mashghoul bel dawam aw msafer.. W etha kan bel kuwait yred ynam w ba3dain ye6la3 ana akoun ga3da adres..




Ghalouya ma3ndaha a7ad bel bait ghair okhouha w kela 6ale3..






Gamat tkalem wayed shabab w tsoulef weyahoum.. Elmalal ysawey kel shay! Fqedat eltheqa bkel elshabab w ma3ndaha este3dad t7eb mara thanya!!




Fey wa7ed esma ibraheem y7ebha..khoush wa7ed w mbayen 3alaih ena ma yel3ab w mu7taram bas ehya kalemta w l3ebat 3alaih.. Ma3endaha theqa eb a7ad






Ama ana gemt asoulef weya wayed nas bel facebook..eley yeswa welly ma yeswa, agazerha 3alaihoum w a6la3



In 28/3/2010


@1:30 PM




I checked facebook there was only one boy is online..


Me: hey


Khaled: heyy:D


Me: what's app?


Khaled: nothing:p u?


Me: nothing too:D

Khaled: shnu esmch?


Me: maryam


Khaled: 3ashat elasamy<3


Me: teslam:D





We started to talk about random thing and after that he asked for my email he wanted to show me a picture.. Because I told him that I'm in xxxx school..






Me: ok bas ba3ad ma twareeny I will delete u


Khaled: ok





I quickly sign up with an new email..


Me: sorry 6walt.. xxxx@hotmail.com


Khaled: done check it





Sign in..





Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum is adding you.. Accept,Block




Accepted


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Welcome


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Thankyou


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ur welcome




Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum is sending you a picture.. Accept,Decline




Accepted




I waited to the picture and then saw it!






It was a picture of him when he was young in the same school that I told him..and also told him that I'm 16 years!



Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ay wa7da feehoum entay:p

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Lool ana mu mawjouda:p enta ay wa7ed feehoum?


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Foug Awal wa7d 3ala elymeen


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Cute:p



Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Thanks:D


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Np




And we chatted for an hour and half!





6ab3an kel shay ga3da agoula chetheb.. La2na mafey a7ad theqa w ghair chethe ma bainy w baina shay bas agazerha suwalef..





9ert wayed agheeb w 3ala 6oul asoulef weyah, ma adres..



Bedait a7eba bas ma atheq feeh..ohwa ba3af 7abny..kela ysoulef weyay w yehtam feeny..knt a7taj hal shay men zeman! W lama legaita laish akhsera? Nesait eny getla bsaweelek block ba3ad ma ywareeny elpicture..




I didn't told anybody about him except Deema..




Deema: rawan shgelna 3ala hal suwalef


Me: wanasaa


Deema: w ba3ad hal wanasa ra7 tabcheen


Me: ana magetla ana mnu shfeech 3ady


Deema: hmm take care

Me: ok


Deema: yalla lebsay al7een bamerch w ne6la3


Me: weya mnu?


Deema: ana weyach w noura w shahad


Me: ok




I changed my clothes into white dress and went to avenues..



We went shopping and then to chilis..



Kan za7ma..fa ne6arna barra 3ala ma eyee dourna..





Kan fey jedamna boys ga3deen yeth7koun b9out 3aly..





Jedam hal boys kan feeh 4 boys ga3deen ysoulfoun lama th7ekaw eley jedamna wa7d menhoum laf 3alaihoum w 6al3houm..yat 3ainy b3aina!! Ohwa tanna7 lafait wayhe wela astaw3eb ena FAHAD!





Laish lama ma adry 3anna kela ashoufa! W lama knt weyah kelesh ma a9adfa!!





I told deema that this is fahad! And I hope that noura didn't see him! My face changed!!



Ohma ba3ad na6reen! Yemken yeg3ad yamna!! Ma aby ashoufaa..!!




Me: hney za7ma khal nrou7 ely 3al ba7ar


Shahad: ola shywadeena hnak


Me: a7san men hal na6ra


Deema: eeh a7san hnak t3abt wana wagfa


Shahad: yalla



Ashwaa ghayarnaa elmukan w ma shafny again!! Al7een ana a7eb wa7ed fa ma aby athker fahad..
Ohwa shakla y7ebny ma aby akalem a7ad ghaira la2ny gemt a7eba..

 

 

 

 

 

all the time i was thinking of fahad did he saw me and knows that im rawan or not!

 

 

 

 

 

 

after one hour we went back home, i went to my room, changed my clothes into orange pj and opened the laptop..

 

 

 

 

 

 

i signed in.. in my 3 emails!

 

 

 

 

 

the first one for fahad and ghalouya *offline*

the second one for khaled and deema *busy*

the fird is for my family and friends *away*

 

 

 

 

 

 

should i talk to fahad? i want to know if he saw me or not!! i really missed him..

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 12

 Bader kept annoying ghalouya daily..more than a month!

And I didn't talk to fahad at all.. Do I miss him? YES but I'm dealing with it!

Temanait eny lail7een achatheb 3alaih wala a3aref ena ykalem ghairy men kether ma ana en9edamt wala dam3a nzalat menny!

Ebta3adt 3an noura..kanat kela tethakerny eb fahad w tsoulef 3ana ba3ad ma dara abdulrahman eb kel shay..ga3ed ygoul 7ag fahad kalam mu zain 3any fa ymken kareha feeny..

Me and ghalouya became closer than before.. We learned many lessons from what we did and promised each other that we will be ok without them.

3eraft ena eldenya mara7 tougaf 3ala a7ad w lazem net3awad 3ala chethe..

Ghalouya came to me..and we're sitting in the living room no one is there, everyone is out or in their rooms..

Me: lail7een ga3ed y2atheech

Ghalouya: la2 ashwa fach 3any ohwa w rab3a

Me: ma a9adeg ena fey wa7d lay hal 7aqara

Ghalouya: kelhom chethe masheftay shay

Me: ma yfakroun ela bnafs'houm ma ygoulon 3ndhoum khwat ykhafoun 3alaihoum

Ghalouya: aghbeya

Me: 7adhoum
Ghalouya: 7ata fahad eley ngoul 3ana zain kalam ghairch wallah ma7ad yestahal

Me: etha ohwa merta7 weyaha ana bakoun merta7a

Ghalouya: lay hal daraja t7ebeena

Me: w akthar

Ghalouya: bas 3ad enseeh lay meta bt7ebeena tara ohwa maydry 3an hawa darech

Me: magdar bas ga3da a7awel

FAJ2AA!! Wela asma3 a7ad y9arekh RAAWAAAN




I looked at ghalouya! *shocked*




It's m7amaad!





Ambaih enshallah ma sema3naa!!





Me: hala *scared*


M7amad: ta3alay aby akalmch *angry*


Me: ok





Me: ghalouuuyaa ra7 abchyy


Ghalouya: yal khebla latbayneela ench khayfa rou7eela eb ser3aa


Me: ok ok






I went out of the living room..he was standing and waiting for me!






M7amad: entay ga3da tkalmeen mnu


Me: ghalouya ehya bel 9ala


M7amad: shga3deen tgoloun


Me: nsou-lef


M7amad: rou7ay yeebay mobilech

Me: laish


M7amad: getlch yebeeeh *shouted*


Me: ok




I went and took my mobile.. Ghalouya was scared too!

I gave him the mobile and he through it in the floor!!!

Why did he through it! I sure that he listened to our conversation!!!

M7amad: hatha tensaina fahma

Me: shsawaiiit

M7amad: tekalemay weyay 3adel

Me: magelt shay

M7amad: lama agoulch shay tgouleen enshallah

Me: ok

M7amad: ghabeyaaa goulay enshallah

Me: nafs elshay w laish kasartaa

M7amad: la tradedeeenyy *shouting*

Mesakny men sha3ry w lezagny bel 6ouf!!

Me: wakher 3any shtabyy

M7amad: hal kharabee6 ely tsaweenha etha shftech 3aydat'ha yawailch

Me: ma swaiiit shay w nazelnyy

M7amad: w eley sema3ta shnu

Me: ga3deen nsoulef 3an wa7da

M7amad: latchathbeeeen

6ag rasy bel 6ouf!

Me: mu ga3da achatheeb khala9 nazelny tara y3awer

M7amad: wallah low rfeejtch mu mawjouda chan le3ant khairch

Me: wenta al7een shga3d tsawey ya3ny

M7amad: cham mara agoulch lama atkalam ma tradedeeny goulay enshallah w sektay

Me: magelt shay hatha el9ej

Shahad came and she was crying!

Shahad: m7amad tekfa nazelna 7aram 3alaik khala9

M7amad: entay malech shghel w rou7ay darech

Shahad: tekfaa nazelhaa laish tsawey chethee

M7amad: testahaaal akthar

Me: ana maswait shay

M7amad: chub wala kelmaa

After few minutes nazlny! 7asait sha3ry enshela3 men mukana! W elghareeb eny ma bechait!

I ran to the living room and went to ghalouya!

Me: akrahaaa

Ghalouya didn't say anything! She's shocked

M7amad shouted: ana a3almech

And went to his room..

Now I started to cry like a baby!

Shahad: laish 9ar kel hatha

Me: ohwa ya madry shnu sema3 feham ghala6 w ba3dain 7ethaf mobiley w gam y6egny

Ghalouya: eeh kena ga3deen netkalam 3an wa7da w 9bay 3ala bala ehya

Me: akrahaa kel shay yefhema 3ala kaifa w y6egny w ysawey kel shay w ma yabeeny atkalam! 7ata 3ala elok y9arekh ygouly goulay enshallah kaify ana atkalam chethe ohwa shyaby 3ala bala chethe ele7teram, yghale6 3alay w ma yabeeny ared 3alaih

Ghalouya: khala9 latabcheen khaleeh ywaley

Me: mara7 ag3ad bel bait etha ohwa mawjoud bashouf ya ana ya ohwa!

Shahad: entay maynounaa

Me: eeh khal yenfe3a eley sawwaah

I took ghalouya's mobile and called my mom..

Me: mama shoufay weldech shsawaa ana mara7 ag3ad bel bait ra7 arou7 3nd ghalouya ya ana ya ohwa

Mama: 3aib ohwa okhouch akbar mench

Me: okhouy bel 3ana ma atsharaf ena ykoun okhouy ana baba ma 6agny al7een ohwa yay y6egny

Mama: esta7ay 3ala wayhech w maku rou7a

Me: maly sheghel mara7 ag3ad bel bait etha ohwa mawjoud

Mama: ana al7een yaya yalla bye

Me: ghalouya bared weyach

Ghalouya: ok ana dgait 3ala eldriver al7een yay

We went to my room and I started to put my clothes in a bag.. I'm crying all the time!

Me: 3ala kaifa y6egny tara wallah y3awer

Shahad: mara7 te6le3een omy mu rathya

Me: kaifha la tertha khal yenfa3ha 7beeb elgalb ga3da tdafe3 3anna

Mama came and shouted at me!

Mama: ana shgaylatlech maku rou7ay etha sheftch 6al3a 7ashait ryoulch

Me: 3ayaal la ashoufa bel baiit

Mama: 3ala kaifch entaay

Me: eeh akrahaa maby ashoufa mu qa9ub

Ghalouya went to her home..

And I'm still crying this is the first time that someone hits me!

Mama was talking to me! She was telling me that I'm wrong:)

Lazem tedafe3 3ana w ana akoun elghal6ana eb kel shay!

Laish y9eerly chethe? 3gub ma hadait fahad w ma gemt akalem ysawouly salfa w an6ag!

After hours..

I'm sitting in my room trying to sleep..

Someone is knocking the door:)

Me: ya3nyy ma anaaam

M7amad opened the door :)

He talks about what happened and said sorry when he hits me.. I was crying and told him that *y3aweer*

He hugged me and then he left..

I kept crying until I fall asleep..

@6:30 AM

 

I woke up and washed my face! When I looked at it I was shocked!

I went to school and everyone is asking me what happened to my eyes!

3youny kanat wayed matfoukha w 7amra!

Getlehoum ena gemt wela ashoufha chethe ymken fey shay gare9ny.. Meshat 3alaihoum!

When I saw ghalouya I hugged her and cried!

Ghalouya: bas khala9 mu jedamhoum

Me: belail ya kalamny

Ghalouya: ba3ad zaffech

Me: la2 kalamny

And told her what happened in details..

Me: al7een maku mobile shnu ra7 agoul 7ag elbanat aw 7ata my cousins

Ghalouya: goulay ena maskour

Me: ok

Days passes.. Without Fahad,mobile, going out with friends or even cousins, and no gym!

 

Whenever I remembered what happened I start to cry!

 

After 2 weeks..

Mama rethat a6la3 weya cousins w my friends yegdroun eyoun baitna!

Me and my cousins decided to go to expo it was in AlRayya..

I was happy! Finally I can go out with cousins!!

 

It was crowded..

 

Wana knt ga3da amshy bel ghala6 d3amt wa7ed!

Me: sorry

Lafait wayhe wela it's FAAAHAAAD!!

Fahad: la2 3ady

W mesha! Aby a3aref 3erafny wela la2! Laish ma yet'thakarny? 7ata 9outy ma yathkera!!

 

En9edamt lama shefta!! Matewaqa3t eny ra7 ashoufa 7ata low shefta ra7 y3arefny! Ohwa shafny bel cam maretain! Kel youm yesma3 9outy bel mic! Laish ma yet'thakarny al7een..lay hal daraja SARA naseta kel shay?

Chapter 11

I'm trying to keep him away from my mind and heart! But I couldn't.. He's part of my heart

I have to be strong enough to stay as I am and nothing can change me to keep me sad and broken heart..

Ghalouya is stronger than me.. She had the ability to face what will happen after lying to bader..at the beginning bader was ok with it but after that he started to fight and remembers her lies!

Everyday I sign in but keep it *OFFLINE*
So he can care of Sara as much as he could..

I started to go to the gym.. Because I'm having a hard time! I'm always free after studying nothing to do..instead of talking to fahad I spend it there..

I met two girls and it seems that they're good and kind.. Nada&Fatima

Nada: she's 16 years, white skin, fat and her high was good..

Fatima: she's 12 years, tanned, fat and tall..

At the begging I didn't like fatima.. But when we talked everything changed..

Nada is awesome! she's funny and everything is ok with her.. Don't care about anything! Living her life in a great way!

After few days.. Nada stopped coming to the gym maybe because she's a senior and have to study more..

Nada is one of Noura's classmates!

Fatima: ana lail7een mu fahma laish dakhla gym w entay mashallah 7adch th3eefaa

Me: hehehe el9ara7a athaye3 wagt

Fatima: 3ad tadreen kan theegat khelg brou7y

Me: laish makntay t3arfeen nada

Fatima: la2

Me: hmm

Fatima: awal ma yaitay 3ala baly a9ghar mennyy
Me: ana lail7een mu m9adga eny akbar mench mashallah malam7ech 7ail kbeera

Fatima: 3aksch

Me: eeh 7ada

Fatima: shnu your email ymken ma ayee hal esbou3

Me: weeh laish

Fatima: 3ndy exams

Me: good luck khala9 al7een adzlch eyah msg

Fatima: ok

I came back home..and slept
And woke up in the morning to go to school,, after that I studies for 3 hours and then go the gym..

This is my day without fahad.. I sign in.. In my new email and offline with the old one.. Just for an hour and sign out.. If anybody wants me they can call me..

On the phone with ghalouya..

Ghalouya: rawan jad ma at7amal bader

Me: haw laish shsawa

Ghalouya: ynadeeny dalal 7ata 3egub ma dera eny ghalya

Me: tara 3ady

Ghalouya: mu bas chethe suwalfa maleeqa 9ayer sakheef

Me: wain gabel badoury w badroury wela ra7at 3alaih

Ghalouya: ohwa tghayar w magam yhemma shay

Me: hmm allah kareem
Ghalouya: sh9ar weyach? Maku new love *galat'ha 3ala the7ek*

Me: aham shay ghalouya tara entay akthar wa7da t3arfeen ana shnu w tgouleen hal kalam *angry*

Ghalouya: rawoun 3ala ay shay t3a9been knt atghashmar wedyach

Me: hatha kalam yengal

Ghalouya: asfeen asfeen

Me: ana lama a7eb? A7eb men kel galby wala afaker eb a7ad ghaiira 7ata low hdaita laish akalem kafy eny jarabt marra w t3alamt wayed ashya2

Ghalouya: bas ohwa khala9 y7eb ghairch
Me: eeh bas laish akalem shnu bastfeed tara mu kelhoum zaineen fey menhoum ygazrounha

Ghalouya: khala9 kaifch a9lan a7salech chethee

Ma7ad yadry shkether at3athab lama athker ena fahad mu 7agy w ena y7eb ghairy!!

Sign in

xxx: hi
<3: hii
xxx: how r u?
<3: el7mdellah good u?
xxx: doum, ana bkhair el7mdellah
<3: 3assa
xxx: teslemeen
<3: allah ysalmek
xxx: :*
<3: how's sara with you?
xxx: mashy el7al
<3: laish 3asa ma shar
xxx: wala shay bas met'hawsheen
<3: aha
xxx: ehya 3aneeda w ela tmashy eley bras'ha
<3: tefaham weyaha w enshallah mara7 ykoun bainkoum za3al
xxx: enshallah

xxx: meta tdawmeen?
<3: men fatra bedat elmadares u?
xxx: shedday 7ailch, ana tareekh 9/10
<3: wow! Eb my birthday:D
xxx: 7ata ur birthday ghair?:o
<3: sorry bas eeh:(
xxx: cham y9eer 3umrch?
<3: 14
xxx: el3umer kella
<3: thankyou
xxx: no need
<3: yalla tamerny 3ala shay?
xxx: salamtch w ehtamay eb derastech
<3: enshallah enta ba3ad w ehtam eb sara kether ma tegdar w la takhser'ha yalla bbye
xxx: bye

Sign out

After this chat I didn't talk to him more than 2 months..

I got my report card and it was 94! My mom was happy that I'm taking good marks and changed into new person who's a hard worker..

But ghalouya got 82 she's not studying at all..she spends her time chatting with bader and fighting with him..and when she fights her mood gets down and can't study..

After we got our report me and my friends decided to hang out..

We went to avenues..

Kan fey boys yet7areshoun feena..wa7ed menhoum kan yabey ghalouya.. E7na 7egarnahoum w meshaina lain mallaw w ra7aw..

Lulu: ghalouuya entay men 9ejch t7ebeen bader

Ghalouya: laish

Lulu: jaiikar entaay a7la menna bwayed

Me: lulu eljamal ohwa jamal elrou7 elshakel mu muhem kether elgalb

Lulu: 3eshtaw 6ale3 mnu tekalam! Welly y3afeech entay sh3arefch bhal suwalef men 9ejy shtabeen feeh
Ghalouya: ba3ad a7eba

Lulu: bas ohwa mu kafu shoufay shnu ga3d ysawey w foug hatha kela jaikar tara fey wayed yabounch w a7san menna

Me: ana agoul a7san shay ena t9ekoun elmawthou3
Ghalouya: eeh a7san

Lulu: mu kafu agoulech shay

Ghalouya thought of lulu's words! Lulu was right..

We had dinner in nino and went back home..

I sat with my family and I became closer to shahad and mama! It's a good change..

W lama a7ad men ahaly ykalemny ma akoun khayfa la2ny mu ga3da asawey shay ghala6..

Ghalouya tghayerat 3ala bader..

W kan fey wa7d kel ma te6la3 yshoufha w yel7agha..
Ba3adha fakerat ena bader mayloug laha..

Fakerat tgoula ena ahalha chakouha w mategdar tkalma mara thanya ohwa enqahar..

B3adha eb cham youm gam ya36y raqmha 7ag rab3a 3shan y2athounha..

Ghalouya: sheftay bader shga3ed ysawey


Me: shnu


Ghalouya: ya36y rab3a raqmy w ga3ed y2athouny


Me: aham shay


Ghalouya: wallah 7ady t7asaft laish kalamta mu kafu! Ashwa eny 3raft ohwa shnu nu3a


Me: eeh goulay el7mdellah

Ghalouya: el7mdellah, ohwa mu rayal fey a7ad ysawey chethe zain ma gamaw yhadedouny


Me: khaleeh ma3alaich mena w etha mara thanya athouch khalay okhouch yzeffa


Ghalouya: bas akhaf ygoula eny knt akalma hatha baye3ha


Me: khala9 3ayal latredeen 3ala a7ad


Ghalouya: ok

Chapter 10

xxx: enshallah tefathelay
<3: madry shagoulk bas asfa
xxx: goulaay! W 3ala shnu tet2asefain?
<3: fahad e7na ma ne9la7 7ag ba3ath, w a7san shay kel wa7d yrou7 b6reeja.. Fahad wallah ana a7ebk bas magdr akamel! 9ej ena e7na 9arlena taqreeban 1 year bas wallah kel youm akoun met'thayga w mu merta7a..
<3: wallah maku a7ad methlek w testahal eley a7san menny.. Fahad ana mu reem! Ana esmy rawan, 3umry 13, kel shay getlek eyah makan 9ej, makan qa9dy achatheb 3alaik.. Awal ma3rftk knt khayfa la2n ymken tkoun t9eerly aw a7ad men ahaly, awal marra akalem 9bay maknt a3aref shnu asawey, 7ata madry eny ra7 a7ebk w y9eer kel hatha asfa w 7agek 3alay w allah ywafgek eb 7yatek
xxx: men 9ejch wela ga3da testa3b6ain?
<3: asfa bas hatha el9ej ma agdar achatheb akthar men chethe thameery y2anebny w maby amout w 7yaty tkoun kelha chetheb..
xxx: bas ana a7ebch w abeech!
<3: enta wayed akbar menny w a7san menny adry shay ma yet9adag bas hatha el9ej
xxx: bas laish tsween chethe ok 3ala elaqal chan geltay kel hatha men gabel! Kel hal muda ga3da techathbeen 3alay!<3: eeh khala9 fahad allah ywafgek w 9adegny ana 7abaitk men kel galby w mara7 ansak adry enk al7een ga3d tekrahny bas wallah madry shloun swait chethe, al7een tamerny 3ala shay?
xxx: la2 entay shga3da tgouleen! Wallaah A7bech.. ok khala9 khal nensa kel shay w nthel weya ba3ath!
<3: asfa 3ala kel shay w wallah mara7 ansak 6oul 3umry w allah ywafgek enshallah telga ely a7san menny bye

Sign out

Al7een madry eley swaita 9a7 wela la2! Bas 3ala elaqal ma athel achatheb 3alaih w ohwa y9adeg..






Calling noura...


Noura: aloo *sleepy voice*


Me: nouuraaa mat9adgeeen eley ra7 agoula


Noura: laish


Me: gelt 7ag fahad el9ej


Noura: 7elfaay shgal

Me: bas getla khala9 ma nkalem ba3ath


Noura: maynouunaaaa entay shsawaiitay 7araam 3alaiiich


Me: shloun tabeeny agoula el9ej w akamel ma3ah ymken ysaweey shay mu zain aw yentqem menny


Noura: entay sh'hal afkar hatha wentay t3rfeen ohwa shnu w tgouleen chethe


Me: etha elwa7ed 7aqad ysawey ay shay

Noura: 7araam 3alaich


Me: noura wallah adry 3ala balch ana mestansa al7een bas 3ala elaqal raya7t thameery ma agdar akalma 3gub ma 3raf ana mnu maly wayh wallah *started to cry*


Noura: khala9 latabcheen bas ana getlch men elbedaya gouleela el9ej w ohwa low y7ebch yetfaham elmawthou3


Me: eeh galy bas ana magdar wallah shloun tabeeny akalma


Noura: al7een shbtsaween

Me: gtla khala9 mara7 adesh elemail wala akalma it's over


Noura: ambaiih





Noura gamat t'hadeeny w t7awel feeny akalem fahad..






I sat on my bed and tried to sleep I don't want to think anymore!!




Ghalouya is calling..



Me: aloo


Ghalouya: entay wainech bel msn ga3da an6erch


Me: maly khelg


Ghalouya: laish




I told her the whole story and I was crying..




Ghalouya: rawan please fakray 7aram takhsereena


Me: ok


Ghalouya: shrayech ne6la3


Me: la2 maly khelg


Ghalouya: yalla 3ad

Me: please ta3alay maly khelg ashouf a7ad


Ghalouya: maleeqaa ok shway w yaya


Me: yalla bye


Ghalouya: bye




After 2 weeks..




Fahad always talked to ghalouya about me, I missed him! I changed my email..and didn't talk to him at all..




Shahad: shfeech bas t3a9been w t9arkheen maynouna


Me: eeh maynouna al7een shtabeen


Shahad: etha m3a9ba ma t6al3een 7aretech eb 3mour


Me: ohoo ok





Went to my room waiting for ghalouya..


Finally she came! I hugged her and cry!!!




Ma adry laish kel ma akalemha abchyyy!




Ghalouya gave the her mobile..



Me: sh7aga?


Ghalouya: fey a7ad yaby ykalmech


Me: aloo


**: salam


Me: 3alaikoum elsalam fahad?

Fahad: eeh ashwa lail7een met'thakratny


Me: hmm


Fahad: 3ash men sema3 hal 9out


Me: thankyou


Fahad: kel youm ga3ed an6erch wainch

Me: fahad ana getlek


Fahad: rayou sorry reem bas mu hatha el7al getlch ana rathyy wallah rathyy


Me: magdaar wallah a9lan al7een ana maly wayh akalmek


Fahad: ana ma 9adgt ench tkalmeeny al7een tgouleen chethe


Me: wallah asfa

Fahad: entay 9ej 9edamteeny kesartay galbey khalaiteeny at3allag feech w akher shay tgouleen khala9


Me: ma aloumek


Fahad: please ana shareeek latkhaleeny


Me: ma agdaar


Fahad: enzain 3ala elaqal msn mu teg63een khair shar

Me: eeh ghayarta


Fahad: enzain rathyy ma tkalmeeny kel youm


Me: ok


Fahad: akeed


Me: enshallah

Fahad: sorry ana khalait ghalya tsawey chethe hathy el6reeqa elwa7eeda eley agdar akalmech feeha


Me: la2 3ady


Fahad: yalla tamreeny 3ala shay


Me: salamtek


Fahad: deeray balech 3ala nafsch w ra7 athel a7ebch etha ghayartay rayech ana na6rech

Me: enshallah enta ba3ad


Fahad: bye ya elghalya


Me: bye






6ab3an ghalouya ga3ed tetsama3!:)





Me: ghalouya laish tsaween chethee 7aram 3alaich tadreen eny a7ebaa w ma agdar


Ghalouya: kesar kha6ry kel youm ysoulef 3anch w yabey ykalmch







Days passes and sometimes I talked to fahad, he tries and tries but I refuse, now we're friends..




I traveled to london..




Ma abey afaker eb fahad abey ansa eny 7baita! Ymken lama abte3d 3ana yensany w yet3awad 3ala elwath3..



I had fun and relaxed<3




When I came back to kuwait..




Ghalouya galat 7ag her boyfriend el9ej w kamelaw weya ba3ath mashallah ma adry shloun egderat tkalma 3gub ma chathebat 3alaih..





School started..




Akheeran legaitley shay yethaye3 wagty! Elwagt yamshy bser3a b2ayam elmadares w hatha ely khalany abt3ed 3an fahad bas bain fatra w fatra akalma..





Met7asfa wayed... 3ala kel shay! 3ala elaqal chan getla el9ej w kamalna weya ba3ath!




Abey akalma w agoula bas enshallah maykoun 7aqed 3alay aw shay atmana nred elyoum gabel bacher!!



So I decided to Sign in


xxx: welcome
<3: thankyou
xxx: no need


xxx: how are you?
<3: el7mdellah good u?
xxx: doum, tamam
<3: you too
xxx: so how's ur new life?
<3: nothing is new u?
xxx: tabeen el9ara7a wela achatheb 3alaich
<3: lol laish
xxx: madry yemkn tez3leen aw tet'thayegain
<3: shda3wa tara e7na friends;p
xxx: el9ara7a gemt akalem wa7da
<3: enzain?
xxx: esmha sara, mbayen 3alaiha khoush wa7da
<3: great allah ywafgek




OK! Ya3ny lama knt abey agoula chethe y9eer? Mnu ra7 y7eba kethry! Yehtam feeh? Bas lazem ma ansa eny chathabt 3alaih w lazem at7amal ghal6ety..




xxx: enshallah
<3: shkether 9arlekoum?
xxx: taqreeban 2 weeks chethe
<3: aha good


Kel ma as2ela at3athab zyadaa! Lail7een ma a9adeg ena ykalem a7ad ghairy! Ana a7eba wala ra7 ansah




Galy kel shay 3anha w kan yemda7ha!!




xxx: yalla ana al7een brou7 ashoufha tabeen shay?
<3: salamtk enjoy
xxx: allah ysalmch, enshallah bas la teg63een
<3: bye


Sign out


Ba3aad byrou7 yshoufhaa!! Enzain laish ygouly? 3ashan y3awer galby w ythayeg khelgy brou7y mu mestaw3eba eley 9ar!




Akbar ghala6 lama tsawoun shay bedoun latfakroun feeh..w elnedam mara7 yenfa3..kel shay mu dayem




Mnu y9adeg ena al7een ana w fahad mu weya ba3ath? W foug hatha kela ga3d ykalem wa7da ghairy!




Calling ghalouya..



Ghalouya: aloo


Me: ghalouuuya


Ghalouya: hala


Me: tkhayeelaay kalaamt fahaad 3ala buna aby nred wela ygouly ena kalam wa7da


Ghalouya: tawch fakartay w 7saitaay

Me: wallah madry laish ana chethe 7athy *started to cry*


Ghalouya: tadreen ena kan kel youm ykalemny 3anch w y7awel ykalmch bas entay matkouneen online, ymken kalamha bas 3ashan yensach ohwa wayed y7ebch we'll daleel ena ma sawalech shay wallah low wa7d thany chan enteqam mench


Me: maby a7ad ykalmaa ana a7eba


Ghalouya: rawan bas abeech t3arfeen shaghla ena mu kel shay bykoun 3ala mazajech w meta matabeen fakray gabel latsaween ay shay

Me: enshallah w ra7 athel akalma aby a3aref ehya men 9ejha t7eba wela la2 abeeh ykoun mestanes weyaha w merta7


Ghalouya: madry shnu el7ekma men ench tgouleen maley wayh akalma 3gub eley swaita ana swait nafsch bas el7mdellah ma9ar shay


Me: please ghalya kelsh mu wagta hal kalam


Ghalouya: ok sorry fakray 3adel w etha tabeen ay shay call me, latensain tomorrow 3ndna quiz

Me: ok bbye


Ghalouya: bye




Should I tell him or not?




Mu men 7agy ohwa al7een ykalem wa7da thanya!




After few days..




Fahad took a blackberry..always talks about his new life with sara.. I'm a good listener




I searched a lot to find sara! I need to talk to her..




Finally I got her email from fahad's facebook..




Talked to sara and she was a good person, she loves fahad as hell! And knew more about her.. I didn't told her that I'm the one who loves fahad.. I lied and told her that I'm a old friend of her..




She's 15 years, tall, white skin and met7ajba..




Al7een erte7t ena Sara zaina w ra7 tkhaleeh merta7 w yensany..