Chapter 13

I told my cousin Deema about fahad and everything happened with me..

Deema is noura's sister.. 14 years, tall, long curly hair, white skin but tanned..

After the expo we went back home..I really wanted to stay out!

Mama: wain re7taw

Me: ma3rath

Mama: ashouf ma 6awaltaw

Me: eeh malaqa

Mama: bas la tma9kheenha bel 6al3at weyahoum

Me: mama! 6al3at weya my friend maku al7een tgouleely la ama9ekh'ha ana ma 9adagt 3ala allah rethaitay!! Mat7soun eny men zeman mu 6al3a aby astanaas

Mama: latkhaleeny agoulch mara thanya maku 6al3a weyhoum

Me: ufff khala9 ok

 

I opened the laptop and checked fahad's facebook.. If he wrote something about today! I wanted to know did he figure that's me!

Nothing is there;s

I had an facebook account with my real name..




I'm really bored of this routine! Nothing is allowed!!

Fakart eny asaweely facebook account but with another name agazer wagty feeh..bedoun la a7ad y7asebny 3ala kel shay asaweeh!

And I did it!!

I received many request from random people..
Accepted everyone..and chatted with them

I'm tired and want to sleep but I can't!




I took my ipod and listened to a song that made me cry!

هذا أنا في وحدتي بعدك على الله العوض

لا شفتني بمرايتي القانا مانشبه بعض

غيرتني ماعدت انا بين على وجهي العنا

وصارت تعابير الحزن تمحي تعابير الهنا

واتصنع البسمة عشان الفرحة بوجهي تبـان

وشلون بس وبسمتي وضع على الوجه انفرض

يالله على الله العوض

وشلون بس وكل شي أيام قربك كان حي

واليوم مابين الحياة والموت لاتحزن علي !

لا شفتني بعدك حزين باكر تفرحني السنين

مدام بعدك قسمتي ماني على امر الله معترض

يالله على الله العوض

بصبر وانا ياما صبرت وياما قدرت و ماقدرت

اجني ثمر طول الصبر وياما من احبابي خسرت

بس انت مابي اخسرك دايم بشوق اتذكرك

وصورة قبال مرايتي كل يوم تجمعنا بعض

يالله على الله العوض

Hal song tethakerny eb fahad! Ma agdar agoul ela allah ywafga eb 7ayata w enshallah ykoun merta7 w mestanes..




I cried till I fall asleep!




Deema came and woke up me..



She was shocked with my face!



Deema: kel hathaa noum


Me: ma nemt ela 7 hours 7ram 3alaich


Deema: 3ayal laish wayhch matfoukh w 3younch bte6la3 men mukanha


Me: madry


Deema: kntay tabcheen


Me: eeh

Deema: mu gelna tensaina! Rawan estansay lay meta w entay chethe malech khelg a7ad


Me: ok ba7awel


Deema: yalla goumay badlay bn6la3


Me: maly khelg omy tsaweely suwlef


Deema la2 rethat

Me: ok




We went to avenues..ate lunch at Nino and then entered cinema..






El6al3at tkhaleeny ansa fahad! Telaheeny 3anna.. A7san men ma ag3ad bel bait w 6oul elwagt athkera!





Gemt atnasa fahad w ma afaker feeh..ma gemt akalem m7amad men hathak elyoum! Ohwa y7awel ysoulef w yeth7ak weyay bas ana ma ared 3laih aw etha rdait ajamla!



Ma7ad y9adegny laish a7eb yousef akthar menna! Yousef fahem mu m3aqad methel m7amad..yefhamny mu kel shay ydaqeq 3alaih..wayed shaghlat 3enda 3ady a7eb tafkeera




Elkel yestaghreb ena ana w ekhwany mu 7ail weya ba3ath bas salam w shwayat suwalef..asoulef w ath7ak weya my cousins akthar menhoum!



Kela huwash ana w omar bas elwa7eeden elgrab men ba3ath kela ag3ad weya a6ega y6egny al3ab weya..bas sa3at n9eer rabe3:p





Ama shahad ma adry shloun tafkreeha kela la2 w 3aib w may9eer..ma atjarra2 w agoulaha ay shay ma3anna ehya kel shay tgouley eyah..



Mama makhtha bkha6erha 3alay bas athel a7ebha w akeed ehya tsawey chethe 3ashan ma9la7tey w khayfa 3alay..





Baba a7ebba ydale3na kelena bas sa3at ykoun mashghoul bel dawam aw msafer.. W etha kan bel kuwait yred ynam w ba3dain ye6la3 ana akoun ga3da adres..




Ghalouya ma3ndaha a7ad bel bait ghair okhouha w kela 6ale3..






Gamat tkalem wayed shabab w tsoulef weyahoum.. Elmalal ysawey kel shay! Fqedat eltheqa bkel elshabab w ma3ndaha este3dad t7eb mara thanya!!




Fey wa7ed esma ibraheem y7ebha..khoush wa7ed w mbayen 3alaih ena ma yel3ab w mu7taram bas ehya kalemta w l3ebat 3alaih.. Ma3endaha theqa eb a7ad






Ama ana gemt asoulef weya wayed nas bel facebook..eley yeswa welly ma yeswa, agazerha 3alaihoum w a6la3



In 28/3/2010


@1:30 PM




I checked facebook there was only one boy is online..


Me: hey


Khaled: heyy:D


Me: what's app?


Khaled: nothing:p u?


Me: nothing too:D

Khaled: shnu esmch?


Me: maryam


Khaled: 3ashat elasamy<3


Me: teslam:D





We started to talk about random thing and after that he asked for my email he wanted to show me a picture.. Because I told him that I'm in xxxx school..






Me: ok bas ba3ad ma twareeny I will delete u


Khaled: ok





I quickly sign up with an new email..


Me: sorry 6walt.. xxxx@hotmail.com


Khaled: done check it





Sign in..





Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum is adding you.. Accept,Block




Accepted


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Welcome


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Thankyou


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ur welcome




Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum is sending you a picture.. Accept,Decline




Accepted




I waited to the picture and then saw it!






It was a picture of him when he was young in the same school that I told him..and also told him that I'm 16 years!



Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Ay wa7da feehoum entay:p

Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Lool ana mu mawjouda:p enta ay wa7ed feehoum?


Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Foug Awal wa7d 3ala elymeen


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Cute:p



Ya ba3adhoum kelohoum ya serajy bainhoum<3:
Thanks:D


Laish eljefa ya 9a7eby:
Np




And we chatted for an hour and half!





6ab3an kel shay ga3da agoula chetheb.. La2na mafey a7ad theqa w ghair chethe ma bainy w baina shay bas agazerha suwalef..





9ert wayed agheeb w 3ala 6oul asoulef weyah, ma adres..



Bedait a7eba bas ma atheq feeh..ohwa ba3af 7abny..kela ysoulef weyay w yehtam feeny..knt a7taj hal shay men zeman! W lama legaita laish akhsera? Nesait eny getla bsaweelek block ba3ad ma ywareeny elpicture..




I didn't told anybody about him except Deema..




Deema: rawan shgelna 3ala hal suwalef


Me: wanasaa


Deema: w ba3ad hal wanasa ra7 tabcheen


Me: ana magetla ana mnu shfeech 3ady


Deema: hmm take care

Me: ok


Deema: yalla lebsay al7een bamerch w ne6la3


Me: weya mnu?


Deema: ana weyach w noura w shahad


Me: ok




I changed my clothes into white dress and went to avenues..



We went shopping and then to chilis..



Kan za7ma..fa ne6arna barra 3ala ma eyee dourna..





Kan fey jedamna boys ga3deen yeth7koun b9out 3aly..





Jedam hal boys kan feeh 4 boys ga3deen ysoulfoun lama th7ekaw eley jedamna wa7d menhoum laf 3alaihoum w 6al3houm..yat 3ainy b3aina!! Ohwa tanna7 lafait wayhe wela astaw3eb ena FAHAD!





Laish lama ma adry 3anna kela ashoufa! W lama knt weyah kelesh ma a9adfa!!





I told deema that this is fahad! And I hope that noura didn't see him! My face changed!!



Ohma ba3ad na6reen! Yemken yeg3ad yamna!! Ma aby ashoufaa..!!




Me: hney za7ma khal nrou7 ely 3al ba7ar


Shahad: ola shywadeena hnak


Me: a7san men hal na6ra


Deema: eeh a7san hnak t3abt wana wagfa


Shahad: yalla



Ashwaa ghayarnaa elmukan w ma shafny again!! Al7een ana a7eb wa7ed fa ma aby athker fahad..
Ohwa shakla y7ebny ma aby akalem a7ad ghaira la2ny gemt a7eba..

 

 

 

 

 

all the time i was thinking of fahad did he saw me and knows that im rawan or not!

 

 

 

 

 

 

after one hour we went back home, i went to my room, changed my clothes into orange pj and opened the laptop..

 

 

 

 

 

 

i signed in.. in my 3 emails!

 

 

 

 

 

the first one for fahad and ghalouya *offline*

the second one for khaled and deema *busy*

the fird is for my family and friends *away*

 

 

 

 

 

 

should i talk to fahad? i want to know if he saw me or not!! i really missed him..