Chapter 11

I'm trying to keep him away from my mind and heart! But I couldn't.. He's part of my heart

I have to be strong enough to stay as I am and nothing can change me to keep me sad and broken heart..

Ghalouya is stronger than me.. She had the ability to face what will happen after lying to bader..at the beginning bader was ok with it but after that he started to fight and remembers her lies!

Everyday I sign in but keep it *OFFLINE*
So he can care of Sara as much as he could..

I started to go to the gym.. Because I'm having a hard time! I'm always free after studying nothing to do..instead of talking to fahad I spend it there..

I met two girls and it seems that they're good and kind.. Nada&Fatima

Nada: she's 16 years, white skin, fat and her high was good..

Fatima: she's 12 years, tanned, fat and tall..

At the begging I didn't like fatima.. But when we talked everything changed..

Nada is awesome! she's funny and everything is ok with her.. Don't care about anything! Living her life in a great way!

After few days.. Nada stopped coming to the gym maybe because she's a senior and have to study more..

Nada is one of Noura's classmates!

Fatima: ana lail7een mu fahma laish dakhla gym w entay mashallah 7adch th3eefaa

Me: hehehe el9ara7a athaye3 wagt

Fatima: 3ad tadreen kan theegat khelg brou7y

Me: laish makntay t3arfeen nada

Fatima: la2

Me: hmm

Fatima: awal ma yaitay 3ala baly a9ghar mennyy
Me: ana lail7een mu m9adga eny akbar mench mashallah malam7ech 7ail kbeera

Fatima: 3aksch

Me: eeh 7ada

Fatima: shnu your email ymken ma ayee hal esbou3

Me: weeh laish

Fatima: 3ndy exams

Me: good luck khala9 al7een adzlch eyah msg

Fatima: ok

I came back home..and slept
And woke up in the morning to go to school,, after that I studies for 3 hours and then go the gym..

This is my day without fahad.. I sign in.. In my new email and offline with the old one.. Just for an hour and sign out.. If anybody wants me they can call me..

On the phone with ghalouya..

Ghalouya: rawan jad ma at7amal bader

Me: haw laish shsawa

Ghalouya: ynadeeny dalal 7ata 3egub ma dera eny ghalya

Me: tara 3ady

Ghalouya: mu bas chethe suwalfa maleeqa 9ayer sakheef

Me: wain gabel badoury w badroury wela ra7at 3alaih

Ghalouya: ohwa tghayar w magam yhemma shay

Me: hmm allah kareem
Ghalouya: sh9ar weyach? Maku new love *galat'ha 3ala the7ek*

Me: aham shay ghalouya tara entay akthar wa7da t3arfeen ana shnu w tgouleen hal kalam *angry*

Ghalouya: rawoun 3ala ay shay t3a9been knt atghashmar wedyach

Me: hatha kalam yengal

Ghalouya: asfeen asfeen

Me: ana lama a7eb? A7eb men kel galby wala afaker eb a7ad ghaiira 7ata low hdaita laish akalem kafy eny jarabt marra w t3alamt wayed ashya2

Ghalouya: bas ohwa khala9 y7eb ghairch
Me: eeh bas laish akalem shnu bastfeed tara mu kelhoum zaineen fey menhoum ygazrounha

Ghalouya: khala9 kaifch a9lan a7salech chethee

Ma7ad yadry shkether at3athab lama athker ena fahad mu 7agy w ena y7eb ghairy!!

Sign in

xxx: hi
<3: hii
xxx: how r u?
<3: el7mdellah good u?
xxx: doum, ana bkhair el7mdellah
<3: 3assa
xxx: teslemeen
<3: allah ysalmek
xxx: :*
<3: how's sara with you?
xxx: mashy el7al
<3: laish 3asa ma shar
xxx: wala shay bas met'hawsheen
<3: aha
xxx: ehya 3aneeda w ela tmashy eley bras'ha
<3: tefaham weyaha w enshallah mara7 ykoun bainkoum za3al
xxx: enshallah

xxx: meta tdawmeen?
<3: men fatra bedat elmadares u?
xxx: shedday 7ailch, ana tareekh 9/10
<3: wow! Eb my birthday:D
xxx: 7ata ur birthday ghair?:o
<3: sorry bas eeh:(
xxx: cham y9eer 3umrch?
<3: 14
xxx: el3umer kella
<3: thankyou
xxx: no need
<3: yalla tamerny 3ala shay?
xxx: salamtch w ehtamay eb derastech
<3: enshallah enta ba3ad w ehtam eb sara kether ma tegdar w la takhser'ha yalla bbye
xxx: bye

Sign out

After this chat I didn't talk to him more than 2 months..

I got my report card and it was 94! My mom was happy that I'm taking good marks and changed into new person who's a hard worker..

But ghalouya got 82 she's not studying at all..she spends her time chatting with bader and fighting with him..and when she fights her mood gets down and can't study..

After we got our report me and my friends decided to hang out..

We went to avenues..

Kan fey boys yet7areshoun feena..wa7ed menhoum kan yabey ghalouya.. E7na 7egarnahoum w meshaina lain mallaw w ra7aw..

Lulu: ghalouuya entay men 9ejch t7ebeen bader

Ghalouya: laish

Lulu: jaiikar entaay a7la menna bwayed

Me: lulu eljamal ohwa jamal elrou7 elshakel mu muhem kether elgalb

Lulu: 3eshtaw 6ale3 mnu tekalam! Welly y3afeech entay sh3arefch bhal suwalef men 9ejy shtabeen feeh
Ghalouya: ba3ad a7eba

Lulu: bas ohwa mu kafu shoufay shnu ga3d ysawey w foug hatha kela jaikar tara fey wayed yabounch w a7san menna

Me: ana agoul a7san shay ena t9ekoun elmawthou3
Ghalouya: eeh a7san

Lulu: mu kafu agoulech shay

Ghalouya thought of lulu's words! Lulu was right..

We had dinner in nino and went back home..

I sat with my family and I became closer to shahad and mama! It's a good change..

W lama a7ad men ahaly ykalemny ma akoun khayfa la2ny mu ga3da asawey shay ghala6..

Ghalouya tghayerat 3ala bader..

W kan fey wa7d kel ma te6la3 yshoufha w yel7agha..
Ba3adha fakerat ena bader mayloug laha..

Fakerat tgoula ena ahalha chakouha w mategdar tkalma mara thanya ohwa enqahar..

B3adha eb cham youm gam ya36y raqmha 7ag rab3a 3shan y2athounha..

Ghalouya: sheftay bader shga3ed ysawey


Me: shnu


Ghalouya: ya36y rab3a raqmy w ga3ed y2athouny


Me: aham shay


Ghalouya: wallah 7ady t7asaft laish kalamta mu kafu! Ashwa eny 3raft ohwa shnu nu3a


Me: eeh goulay el7mdellah

Ghalouya: el7mdellah, ohwa mu rayal fey a7ad ysawey chethe zain ma gamaw yhadedouny


Me: khaleeh ma3alaich mena w etha mara thanya athouch khalay okhouch yzeffa


Ghalouya: bas akhaf ygoula eny knt akalma hatha baye3ha


Me: khala9 3ayal latredeen 3ala a7ad


Ghalouya: ok